3 O'clock







A couple of years ago I heard a sermon by James McDonald titled ‘Pulling Over’ which translated in my mind as ‘Basic Training’.   At the time, I was struggling with the enormous amount of work it was going to take me to pack up literally all my earthly possessions and ship them off to an auction house.  It was a very long and exhausting day.  The next morning my Bible reading took me to the book of Hebrews, particularly when God—in  in His ever so loving way—spoke to my heart in the 10th chapter:


          31Think back on those early days when you first learned about Christ.


Talk about BASIC TRAINING! Do you remember when you were first saved? If you were anything like me you wanted to shout it from the rooftops.  The light of Christ burst forth within me so strongly women I worked with began asking me if I was pregnant again.  My faith was basic, pure and unwavering.  I saw and experienced the majesty of God and began my basic training of reading the bible every day.  The Lord poured Himself into me, and like a thirsty woman wondering in the dessert I drank it in.  I accepted God’s word with the heart of a child.  I did not question it; I just believed it.  Over the next fifteen years of my life I learned how to study the Bible using commentaries, concordances, Vine’s expository, Webster’s 1828 Dictionary, and many other resources. 


Time passed and after fifteen years of service in Children’s Ministry, Praise and Worship Team, Choir, and Women’s Ministry I walked away from my heavenly Father spending the next fifteen years wondering in the wilderness searching for the things of this world I thought I had been missing out on.  Satan fooled me but God, in His gracious mercy, gently began to move me back towards home.  In March of 2010 this prodigal daughter started back on the pathway God had laid out for her. The way did not begin with the basics of Bible study this time.   I knew God’s Word.  This prodigal daughter was called to pray.  Not intercessory prayer, although God has used me as an intercessor, God called me to a prayer time that literally changes my life.   


The first few months were intense and short.  I fumbled and prayed the only way I knew how.  My basement became my prayer closet where I prayed out loud where no one could hear me yet still I felt awkward and admittedly a bit foolish at times.  Some prayers were recited over and over like the Lord’s Prayer while others were request from family and friends and their needs for healing, jobs, homes, cars, etc….  Praying at 3 p.m. every day was no easy task either. 


As time passed God began to teach me how to surrender to Him and showed me how to have a deeper relationship with Him through prayer.  As I learned to enter His Holy of Holies and how to be in His presence, He taught me who He really was in my life.  A life He orchestrates.  A life where He cares about everything that happens to me.  



The journey God led me on called for the release of all the false gods of the world I had accumulated during my fifteen years in the desert.  All the treasures I stored up here on earth were now packed in boxes and sold at auction on March 5, 2011. (Yep, it took almost an entire year for God to bring me to a place of release.)  I did not go to the auction because I had released everything into the capable hands of my heavenly Father.  He in turn showed me exactly how worthless my treasures were when the auction house presented me the proceeds after the sale.  The money really did not matter and I was happy to be in my Father’s house again knowing He would take care of everything.    



As I walk with God down the path laid before me, I have found Prayer—a very basic practice—strengthening my Christian walk. When I am confused, God gives me clarification through His word. When I am hurting and an emotional wreck, I cry out to Him in prayer and He strengthens me and holds me in His arms.



One afternoon while reading in Romans, the Lord reminded me of the times He had been faithful through some really tough times in my life. He reminded me had my brother not been nudged to turn around some 38 years ago, I would have drown after falling off a floating dock into a 30 foot deep spring without knowing how to swim.  Things faded to black when suddenly a hand grabbed me and literally pulled me to safety by my hair.  God reminded me how He comforted me in His arms when my 7 year old son was stuck with a used hypodermic needle outside our apartment complex.  God was with me as we endured Aids testing every three months for the next year of my son’s life praying constantly my son would not be infected with the HIV virus.  God reminded me had He not intervened through the death of my father (now resting with Christ) in December 2005, hubby and I would have been divorced and hubby might not have ever come to know Jesus Christ as his personal savior.  God reminded me through all these things, and many others, He had been with me even during those times I was not walking with Him.  Now, as I read verse 34 of Romans chapter 10, I fall face down before our all mighty God and weep:


34You suffered along with those who were thrown into jail, and when all that you owned was taken from you, you accepted it with joy. You knew there were better things waiting for you that will last forever.


 Our heavenly Father, who knows the weaknesses of mankind, reaffirmed things for me. He spoke through His word and reminded me there are better things waiting for me. He went on to say:


35So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! 36Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised.


Every day I ask God to help me and strengthen me with patient endurance. If you are struggling and wondering where God is during troubling times—whether they are big or little struggles—take a moment to go back to the basics. Think back on those early days when you first learned about Christ. Think back on those times He was holding you in His arms. Remember when you had the faith that God truly could do anything?  Remember today that He truly can.  Great is our God!


Always loving the Lord,

Lori Robbins





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1. Jerry | June 02, 2013 at 08:06 PM EDT

Everytime I read your blogs, my eyes tear up and I honestly do feel closer to God. I love you and find peace in your words. I know you have been blessed by God!

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