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MANY QUESTIONS by Lori Robbins

It has been a while since my last post and the only reason I can honestly give is this: I was in a place spiritually that I needed to work through with my Lord.  He understood very well; I however did not. 

Suffice to say I am not the only person in Christianity to have ever had a ‘slump’ if you will.  It lasted a few months.  I prayed. I studied God’s Word.  I prayed some more.  Still I could not get past the emotions which kept me in a place of questioning.  Please understand I am NOT saying I lost my faith or turned from God. That never happened.  I just had so many questions that begged answers.  Sometimes the answers were long in forthcoming.  Some questions I still have no answers to.

My questions were simple and honest.  They required me to search God’s Word and beyond to gain understanding as to why a Christian would ask such questions to begin with.  They required too that I search my own heart and determine my motives for my Christianity.  Was I serving God only to be served by Him?( i.e. answered prayers for my personal life and needs while throwing in a few requests for others and perhaps our country and the world.)  Perhaps my Christian life leaned more toward having laws to follow and rules to adhere to? Someone to set limits for me if you will keeping me on the straight and narrow.  Was I truly willing to “sell all I have and follow Jesus” or is this something I liked to think I would do if required to do so?  It was so easy to speak of my faith in Christ but was I more like Peter when it came down to it?  Would I have denied Christ three times?  If I had the testing God required of Job would I have ‘cursed God and died’ like Job’s wife suggested?

Needless to say something happened in my life these past few months which brought these questions and many more to mind.  My faith was, and quite honestly still is, being tested.  While I am not in the ranks with Job—because my faith is not that strong obviously—God, in my personal opinion, does become silent for a while to help us grow in hearing His voice. 

“How so,” you might ask?  Because it is precisely these times when I dig deep for the answers!  I know God’s Word is not a lie.  He says He will never leave or forsake us.  He says if we ask, he will answer.  So the questions, then, become a ‘throne in my side’ and I simply must search to get to the truths.  Many times these truths were only found when I searched deep inside myself.  Times when I prayed and cried out to God and He allowed me to sit in quiet muddling over and over in my mind the questions in my heart. Then He in His mercy—and sometimes I think perhaps His pity for my small human mind—gives me wisdom and suddenly the answer jumps into my mind.

Now before you think I am some nutcase let me point you to a bit of Scripture here.  Nehemiah said, “Then the Lord put the idea into my head...” (Nehemiah 7:5 (G.W.T.) so if God put ideas into Nehemiah’s head, and God is the same yesterday, today and forever, then why wouldn’t God do the same to me? Or you?  The answer is He would.  Jesus says, “My sheep hear my voice.”  (John 10:27)  So it just makes sense God still speaks to us—puts ideas into our heads—aka answers our questions.

Then there are times God wants me to search for answers.  “Seek and ye SHALL find.”  And that is why I have been away for a while.  I have been intensely seeking.  I am still seeking for some answers.  Sadly, some questions may never be answered until I am in glory sitting in the throne room and at the feet of my heavenly Father.  Truthfully I wish that were not the case.  I have an inquiring mind and inquiring minds want to know.  But it is what it is.  That does not mean that I will stop seeking.  It just means I will be seeking for the rest of my life and I come to reason that this may not be a bad thing.

Are you struggling with questions?  Maybe you are lost and confused with your Christian walk.  Maybe you do not understand why you are not being healed.  Maybe why you have not found that special someone, that soul mate.  Maybe God answers your prayers for others but not the ones you pray for yourself.  Maybe you want to be in ministry but no doors seem to be opening up.  Maybe you have sold all that you have.  Maybe you have ideas in your head that just are not panning out yet.  Maybe you need to know what to do about a situation you are struggling with.

We all have so many questions we feel we need answers to.  These questions exist in all our lives.  I wish I could say your answers will come. Truth is some questions may get answers while others may never be answered in this lifetime.  Faith means we trust.  We must trust “God is working all things together for our good…” including all our questions.  It is hard for us not knowing the answers however you can find peace realizing God has all the answers.  He had them even before we had the questions.  Now that, my friends, is good to know.

Always loving our Lord,

Lori Robbins 

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